Great and Confusing day

great and confusing day

Raya tahun nie agak lain...mama berada jauh..adik beradik lain pun jauh..sedih

beb...first day raya aku gi umah ibu ...menagih kasih untuk menjamah sesuap ketupat dan

rendang.. :P...memang lazat...lepas tu aku gi umah anty Tim...best...lama tak jumpa anty TIM..ialah dia duk kelatan...aku mas dan aliyah asyik amik gambar dalam bilik je..berhimpit ke..kena himpit ke..janji ada gambar...hehehe...
teringat aku masa lepas sembahyang raya..lepas tu aku ziarah kubur arwah abah...air mataku menitis tanpa disedari.....terkenang kisah silam bersama abah...he is a great father...dia nak sgt anak dia dapat berjaya..dapat degree...tapi abah tak sempat tengok aku dapat degree...abah pernah cakap."belajar..nanti jaga abah ngan mama..adik-beradik yang lain..bila membaca jangan baring...sembahyang jangan tinggal.."suara tu masih terngiang-ngiang kat telinga aku...time tulis blog nie pun air mata aku berlinangan....Abah..even you are not physically watching me..even you watch me from different world....i will take my responbility as a child..as a husband as a father and grandfather.....i will prove to mama and other that i'll also can survive and success...Ya Allah...tuhan yang maha berkuasa dan penyayang...tempatkan la abahku Allahyarham Mohd Ariff bin Abdul Rahman disyurga mu..disisimu..di tempat-tempat orang beriman...kasinhani la dia seperti mana dia mengasihani ku sejak dari kecil lagi...Amin...

she love me...huge...wonderful..she's fantastic..is not to raise her but she is totally great...i feel happy when talk with her...every moment...even we in a clash opinion...even when we feel sad for each other....i still happy and greatful that i can talk to her....Thanks to God..Allah yang maha kuasa...maha pemurah dan maha penyayang...whatever she is..i will love her..she is part of me now..

In happiness sometimes there is short period that confusing in us..we still learning each
other..I will try to explain until her understand..no matter what it takes...today...huhu..maybe i'm not good in words...i make she feel sad..i didn't mean for what i said..she is not metarialistic...every women wants to be love..one someone to take care of her...sayang...I will tried to get what you want..even i have to suffer or sacrifice my life....i will try my level best to make you happy and enjoy your life with me...

when she come to the picture...i don't know why i forced my self..i forced my self to
think...i forced my self to make it happen....lots of new things happen when i'm falling in
love with her...the power of love...another thing is sometimes we doesn't see our own mistake...i hope that she will remind or tegur my mistake...and me as well will tegur her mistake...
Just to inform you dear if you didn't notice....i love you..love you all my heart...

This song dedicated to NJ :


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